So I blog again, after a really long time, as I had to express my words to somebody or atleast somewhere after staying quiet on the stage in front of 200 people, there are thoughts humans develop in their brains and they ought to express it to prevent their brain from degrading. So, it goes like this.
Yesterday, I was sitting in the very first lecture while I was called out of nowhere and asked whether I would attend an Inter college fest, representing the college for debate. Its true, I had gone to another college for debate but didn't get into the finals solely because it was the first time I was participating in a debate competition. Now here was my second chance waiting for me just a stone's throw away. I accepted the offer and went to MVSIT's Fest Splash'12. The most disappointing thing about this college would be that we have to travel atleast a kilometre from the main National Highway to reach the college. The infrastructure of the college was good with scanty drinking water supply. It was nowhere as close to the fest I attended at NITTE. That was one awesome fest and NITTE was the place where for the very first time I understood what debate was all about. So getting back to MVSIT. We cleared the preliminary round with unprecedented ease and I was pretty confident that we could make it to the First prize until I heard that I had to speak on stage in front of a hundred people!!
The long lost nightmare of stage fear sprinted back to life making me vulnerable to its mercy. We had to speak against the topic 'Are social networking sites any good to the society?' And I jotted down all the points that I had to. I tell you, I am really good at jotting points down and writing stuff, but when it comes to speaking the same stuff I jotted down a minute earlier or for that matter any other stuff, I blurt out stupid things and make the most stupidest of mistakes in English Grammar which I would dare not even make in my dreams! And thats' what happened on stage, I spoke for the first 30 seconds making a hell lotta errors and stammering and slurring and god knows what! My partner spoke really well for the rest of the eleven and a half minutes! I was a sitting duck on the stage. For the next few hours and even now, I am trying to convince myself that I am not good at arguing (which i am actually not) reasoning that I was just not the debate kind of person. I stick to what I find is correct and not according to chits telling me to speak for OR aagainst something. I know, that's my silly excuse at embarrassment and I want to do better at speaking on stage, but not sure how.. Well readers, If you could help me, kindly do so. That's about it for today and I'll make it a point to blog more often now :P Alright people! :)
Yesterday, I was sitting in the very first lecture while I was called out of nowhere and asked whether I would attend an Inter college fest, representing the college for debate. Its true, I had gone to another college for debate but didn't get into the finals solely because it was the first time I was participating in a debate competition. Now here was my second chance waiting for me just a stone's throw away. I accepted the offer and went to MVSIT's Fest Splash'12. The most disappointing thing about this college would be that we have to travel atleast a kilometre from the main National Highway to reach the college. The infrastructure of the college was good with scanty drinking water supply. It was nowhere as close to the fest I attended at NITTE. That was one awesome fest and NITTE was the place where for the very first time I understood what debate was all about. So getting back to MVSIT. We cleared the preliminary round with unprecedented ease and I was pretty confident that we could make it to the First prize until I heard that I had to speak on stage in front of a hundred people!!
The long lost nightmare of stage fear sprinted back to life making me vulnerable to its mercy. We had to speak against the topic 'Are social networking sites any good to the society?' And I jotted down all the points that I had to. I tell you, I am really good at jotting points down and writing stuff, but when it comes to speaking the same stuff I jotted down a minute earlier or for that matter any other stuff, I blurt out stupid things and make the most stupidest of mistakes in English Grammar which I would dare not even make in my dreams! And thats' what happened on stage, I spoke for the first 30 seconds making a hell lotta errors and stammering and slurring and god knows what! My partner spoke really well for the rest of the eleven and a half minutes! I was a sitting duck on the stage. For the next few hours and even now, I am trying to convince myself that I am not good at arguing (which i am actually not) reasoning that I was just not the debate kind of person. I stick to what I find is correct and not according to chits telling me to speak for OR aagainst something. I know, that's my silly excuse at embarrassment and I want to do better at speaking on stage, but not sure how.. Well readers, If you could help me, kindly do so. That's about it for today and I'll make it a point to blog more often now :P Alright people! :)
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